thecaitlin asked: I saw somewhere you said you had a pacemaker? what happened if you don't mind my asking?

I sure do and I don’t mind you asking one bit. I imagine it’s a strange thing to hear about from an outsider’s perspective. (:

As a child I always had a hard time with any sort of physical activity and had painful dizzy spells often. At first the doctors thought it was asthma, but no medication or inhaler made a difference. Over the course of a year, they diagnosed me with several digestive conditions and just wrote off any of my symptoms as being caused by those ailments. It was frustrating to me though because a hiatal hernia and GERD does not cause dizziness and a lack of blood flow to my fuckin’ knees. XD Another year went by, and by this time I was 14 and a freshman in high school. I underwent an upper-endoscopy (they put me to sleep and sent a camera down my throat). My heart reacted poorly to the anesthetic and I wasn’t entirely asleep. THANK THE STARS it was not an evasive surgery or I would have felt everything. Instead all I remember is a lot of gagging, pain all down my esophagus, some tears and the blurred sight of doctors/nurses passing by. The doctors and nurses noticed the heart monitor going berserk, so they pulled me out of the procedure and admitted me to the cardiology ward for a 24-hour EKG. After that it was tests and tests and EKG-halters and running on treadmills and omg, SO MUCH BLOOD WORK AND EKG’S. 

I was diagnosed with 2nd/3rd degree bundle branch block, and I show all the signs of Long QT syndrome. Long QT is a genetic issue however, and since it was not found in my DNA I’m not technically diagnosed…even though I show all the signs.

So, because I was only diagnosed with the bundle branch block, I received a pacemaker implant. If I had been formally diagnosed with Long QT I would have received an internal defibrillator as well. The surgeon went ahead and installed the wiring for a defibrillator into my heart, just not the actual defibrillator in case I need it in the future.

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The quality of my life has DRAMATICALLY improved ever since. Except, people with old microwaves and strong magnets like to fuck with me….

alysrazor asked: i have a question for you. i know, because you model and everything, you might be against this, but would you ever consider getting any tattoos? obviously not too large or dramatic or anything, but i'm just curious. :) i've come to love tattoos more than piercings now, and i have two and want so many more. i love hearing other peoples opinions on them regarding their own body.

I personally hate the idea of getting a tattoo, and it’s not because of my modeling either. >: 

I respect the dedication and artwork behind each tattoo artist and the stories behind many tattoos. I love the tattoos I’ve seen on my friends, family, and the alternative models I’ve become friends with. I just reallyyyyyyy do not like the idea of ever getting one myself.

I think the look of skin is the sexiest part of the human body and I’m super happy Dylan has no intention of getting tattooed either. A good friend of mine once said “I think a tattoo would feel like someone scribbled with markers all over me and I’d feel dirty and want to get it off asap.” Which is exactly how I feel. I just wouldn’t want to look down and see anything but my purty skin.

But again, that’s just how I feel personally and it does not affect my view of tattooed people. I think tattoos are beautiful and fucking rad on other people, but they’re just not for me. I also think it’s pretty damn awesome that tattooed people are becoming closer to being in the majority. There’s still a lot of work to be done to make the modded community more accepted, but my tattooed brothers and sista’s are paving the way. n__n

HOWEVER! I’m a huuuuuge fan of the idea of heavy modifications. I’ve wanted my tongue split since I was 14. I’d like to have my ears pointed and possibly get plastic surgery done for a sharper, more “elf-like” jawline. And I’d like to experience suspension as well. That’s my list so-far, plus a few piercings. :p

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Anonymous asked: I just want. Be honest with you. You have a stunning face and I don't think you should hide it with all the grunge modeling. You have a high fashion face and could do so much. You could do a lot of high fashion I feel like and e successful. You should try taking a bit of less grunge photos and more high fashioned. Wish you the best of luck beautiful .

You get an A+ for constructive criticism done right. Take note anons! <333

I really am flattered. But please understand that the crazy modeling I do is my escape, and my art. My heart forever lies in the alternative world.

However, I am agency represented and will eventually be temporarily selling my soul to the fashion world. The alternative modeling will always be available later, but I can only do fashion while I’m still young. I understand that. <:

So I’m currently on hiatus with my agency while I find a “normal” job, get a place and stabilize myself in LA. I’m working on that currently, so in my spare time I do the more artsy projects! :D 

I will eventually be a full-time, full fledged fashion model.

n.n I am very glad to know that at least one person is looking forward to this, eh?

Thank you!

meghanjack asked: Oh my goodness, were those white platforms hard to walk in? They're like a mile high!

I wear platforms on the daily, so walking wasn’t bad. Posing however…I only ate-pavement a couple times, but I’m the world-champion of falling on my face. No tears were had, only laughs. XD

g33kgasm asked: you and your man, I would gladly be a boytoy you're both so gorgeous ^_^

Oh shucks, YUMMY!

I love cute and kinky people.

Hell yeah. <3

I have the best followers ever. n

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